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2013 was a trying year for me. I struggled a lot. My patience was tested daily. Yet I remained stubborn and didn't take some time to myself to reboot. Sometimes all I need is some silence to clear my head after the constant over-stimulation of kiddos. I've realized that when I don't put myself first I become worn thin and it takes a toll on my family. So no more of that in the coming year. No more momma's guilt or trying to live up to unrealistic expectations. I am going to lay my burdens down and leave all the falsehoods that aren't serving me anymore behind. And that's just the reassuring message that I received on my tea bag today. The absolute perfect send-off to 2013. Well, besides the other message I received today that nearly knocked me off my feet and made the whole year worth it....
They were all desperate for my undivided attention and each had their own ball that I was meant to throw. I was overwhelmed as I bounced between them. Slowly realizing that I was being broken down into pieces and unable to fully focus on the moment {a usual occurrence}. Then Kam said out of the blue, "You're a really good mom for throwing the ball with each of us." I was speechless. I'm usually left feeling that I couldn't measure up to everyone's needs, but he appreciated my efforts. That made my year. Thank you for that sweet son. It means more to me than you'll ever know.
All of those trials and tribulations just melted away and I felt redeemed. His words were as definitive as if it stamped 'complete' on 2013. Now I can close that chapter and move forward into the new year just as that tea bag suggested....
"Empty yourself and let the universe fill you."
I'm letting go of all the past hurt and beginning anew in God's glory. That sounds pretty darn good to me.
Happy New Year!